Obviously there was no blog on these days. i was heavily medicated and incoherent. I still am, but I plan to blog today because I don't find it acceptable or excusable to neglect this blog, something, I've committed to simply because it's a challenge. I feel like maybe I should surrender this time. I have to know when it's best to step down, but I don't want to. Besides, being too weak to express the burdens of my life isn't my way. If I don't release it somehow,some way it gets trapped in me. Even if freeing it is a pain, it's worse to keep it in. So today I'm ready to rip!